Stopping Cerazette After 9 years - WTF?

 After 9 or so years on Cerazette, I came off on 15th January 2018 - 18 days today.

First 12 days were a breeze, then BAM! Woke up at day 13 feeling woozy and like my head was swimming. The whole day was spend in bed and my usual demon hunger that runs my life and has done for the last decade( and has seen me get up to 266lbs), has left me -  In fact, I've lost 2lbs without even trying, so now sitting at 264lbs, or 18stone and 12 pounds.

The last 3 days have been...HELL.

I have not slept due to my heart feeling like it's going to stop whenever I lay down.
During the day, a tiredness just hits me and then I feel woozy and like I need to be in bed. It's lessening and I'm keen not to pay it too much attention, but I have felt my heart have stabbing pains or like it's racing but my activity tracker says my rate has stayed the same.

The first night I felt like this, I assumed I was tired and went out for work drinks with colleagues that Friday -  BIG mistake.
That one porn star martini made it IMPOSSIBLE to sleep and my heart felt like it was going to stop, especially when I lay on my front.

Over the last 48 hours, I've taken to drinking Camomile Tea, I have had to sip on some peppermint tea as I awoke yesterday with all of the crippling bloating associated with getting Aunt Flo, but the b!tch never arrived.
Last night was amazing, as I slept like a dog and had NO heart /  chest pains. . So, with a bit more energy, I'm able to tackle the swimming head that seems to strike me with no warning.
I was fine this morning, then in the last 45 minutes, my head has started it's nonsense and the bloating stopped yesterday afternoon.

Right now, head swimming and I feel like I need to be asleep.

Unlike others, I have not stopped Cerazette because I'm trying to conceive, I stopped because I am fat, depressed and my mood is lower that it's ever been.

Like, EVER.

In fact the urge to procreate is the furthest thing from my mind.

I used to be able to shake that feeling of low mood, motivation and general sense of impending doom, however, I feel like a culmination of losing my Father 6 months ago, turning 30 three months ago and hitting my highest ever weight late last year, I need to start taking control of my mental and physical being.

I will keep you posted because, I have searched and searched the internet yet, there is no FULL and FRANK posts about cerazette specifically for women who do not want children.
It may seem counter intuitive that I'm coming off Birth Control, and not wanting children, but there ARE non hormonal methods out there.

I just want to feel NORMAL again, but I've read this shit takes up to 3 months to leave your system